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Have You Had These?

images (32)I hurt my back some 15 years ago. I think I started feeling the pain from wearing heels. The pain in my back was initially diagnosed as DDD or Degenerative Disc Disease. I opted for just therapy and seemed to work but few more years later it progressed from DDD to Herniated Discs-L4-L5. The epidural I took in 2004 lasted until 2010. And my battle with back pain started since then.

In 2011, the pain became aggressive and unbearable. I would have sporadic pain all the way from my neck down to my toes. Going down the stairs was as painful going up. Pulling up the sheets felt like my muscles were being torn to tiny pieces and my joints were always burning (if that makes sense). Chronic was not my favorite word then, it is still not today.

The pain stayed with me for 2 years – x-rays after x-rays, blood testing and all and they could not tell me what’s wrong with me. All I got for the most part was that I was just getting old,  lol.

I was even diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 2011, given meds I never took  (but you know what?  There was a prophetic healing Sunday at church last year, I was prayed over ) and this year when I had another check up, the doctor said “you don’t have fibromyalgia” after poking me and bending and stretching me and what not. Hallelujah!

I felt silly telling him I had that though,  but hey I was just going with what the previous doctors told me.


July of last year, I hurt my back again cleaning the tub and took what seemed to be forever to get the treatment I wanted. Well I didn’t really know what I want except for the pain to go away and this is what I have been getting lately.


The procedure I have been going through is a test before the big procedure (which I will type later. Not explain because in my own words it sounds funny when I tell friends about it).  To isolate and determine where the pain is coming from aside from I got the first procedure and was injected pain blocker medicine to my sacroiliac joint.  Boy, did it hurt so bad!  But I felt better soon after,  although  there was still a bit of a lingering pain, and you have to have that pain to get to the next test. (Rocket Over to TEST #2)===>

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This test was relatively easy. Not as painful as the first -just the initial poke was like ant bites and pressure all over lumbar area. It felt weird but yeah why wouldn’t it feel weird? Only three long needles poking you in the back!  Unlike the first test, my pain this time completely disappeared. I was able to wear my pants without laying in bed and I could finally bend and tie my shoe laces!


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I tell my friends, “they will burn my nerves” and they go “so you will be running trying to put out the fire screaming?”  Ha ha! The right term might be cauterize?  I dunno. *shrugs. I have yet to get  this procedure this Friday so I can’t say much about this. But if anyone of you have done this, you may share your experience with us.

Please pray for me on that day.It will be performed in the morning. I hope it takes care of my pain. Oh by the way, we are only doing the right side. Left side to follow soon as I am able to do the procedure all over again.

Thanks for reading and I would like  to hear your stories.



Being Married and All

imageIt’s been more than a month since I got married and everything is so serene now.  Not to bore you with my stories but I am thinking more of “journtalizing” ( my own coined word for immortalizing a journal entry ) the event  so when I get old and grey and I can go back to this page and be reminded of how wonderful it is to be married:)

I can start by saying that it was truly magical and memorable. The thrill of starting a new life phase is something that sticks with you long after the cake’s been eaten and thank you cards been sent. It’s more than just the wedding, it is the marriage. The warmth and fuzzy of being called “wife” , the giddiness of calling my ex-boyfriend “husband”-they are just little trips I get high on everyday:)

The blending of two families and sharing lives as if they’re one is just so amazingly pleasant, It is an adventure and a constant phase of discovering more amusing and sometimes annoying new (or old) quirks about each other.

More than that, our Lord has been gracious and generous to us both. As we start our lives as Mr.and Mrs. the Lord revealed new plans for us. An exciting journey started and the Lord is re-directing us to a whole new path. We are excited, we are enthusiastic and energetic and we look forward to starting our married lives in a new environment, a new house we can call our home and new friends that will come along.



He popped the question, and…


Oh My God!

When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
human beings that you care for them?

Who is Your God?

Who is Your God?

Couple of days ago, a thought was impressed upon me. “When life is smooth, God is good. When life is tough, God is cruel.”  I didn’t know what to make of that thought until this morning when part of my devotion brought me to Psalm 8. I was not thinking that for myself but I know that some people make general statements about God that are usually not founded on biblical facts and truths.

Most people form an opinion of God through tradition, religion and other twisted description by different people of different background and experiences.  Some people are quick to judge God or say He doesn’t exist, but when asked to support their opinion with facts, they scramble for answers.

Are You Willing to Listen?

Are You Willing to Listen?

Our opinion of God is based on our unique, intimate relationship with Him. When people can’t tell us who their God is, we should be ready to offer some insights and prayerfully share who He really is. How can one look at His creation and deny His existence?  Just put your hand over your chest and feel your heart beat. Don’t you wonder in amazement how our body (inside and out)  works like a symphony orchestra?

You have made them a little lower than the angels
and crowned them with glory and honor.
You made them rulers over the works of your hands;
you put everything under their feet:
all flocks and herds,
and the animals of the wild,
the birds in the sky,
and the fish in the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.

If God is a cruel god, why would He go through the trouble of thoughtfully creating us if He meant us harm and destruction? All His wonderful creations He gave at our disposal. He trusts us enough to oversee His masterpiece, right? What do you own that is valuable and willing to hand over to someone for safekeeping?

Would you even do that? …I know, right?

God's plans yellowNext time our life circumstance is not pleasant and favorable, instead of blaming and judging God,  my prayer is that we  go to the source to search and really get to know the author of life.

God bless you real good.

Suspended Coffee

Found this shared by a friend on FB. Let us start buying suspended coffee, it won’t cost us too much. Please read on…



We enter a little coffeehouse with a friend of mine and give our order. While we’re approaching our table two people come in and they go to the counter: ‘Five coffees, please. Two of them for us and three suspended’ . They pay for their order, take the two and leave. I ask my friend: “What are those ‘suspended’ coffees?” My friend: “Wait for it and you will see.”

Some more people enter. Two girls ask for one coffee each, pay and go. The next order was for seven coffees and it was made by three lawyers – three for them and four ‘suspended’.

While I still wonder what’s the deal with those ‘suspended’ coffees I enjoy the sunny weather and the beautiful view towards the square in front of the café.

Suddenly a man dressed in shabby clothes who looks like a beggar comes in through the door and kindly asks ‘Do you have any suspended coffee?’

It’s simple – people pay in advance for a coffee meant for someone who can not afford a warm beverage. The tradition with the suspended coffees started in Naples, but it has spread all over the world and in some places you can order not only a suspended coffee, but also a sandwich or a whole meal. Wouldn’t it be wonderful to have such cafés or even grocery stores in every town where the less fortunate will find hope and support? If you own a business why don’t you offer it to your clients… I am sure many of them will like it.

Please join

very respectfully,
Scott Sonnon

Time is of the Essence

Happy New Year is what we always say to each other. nothing is wrong with that. But the new year will not always be a happy one. In fact, the new year was met with tragic accidents and homicide around the Bay Area, some actually happened while they were trying to be happy. Quite ironic huh?

Also, since I am a believer of the power of spoken words, I will have to alter the greeting a bit to make it more meaningful and a blessing-BLESSED New Year, Everyone!

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My last year was full of plans and resolutions and hopes and dreams. It was also full of frustrations, disappointments and stress. A year ago, a plan was conceived but it didn’t progress the way or speed that I hoped it would be. It left me unhappy, stressed out, bitter, frustrated, did I say unhappy? It’s been a roller coaster of hopes and stupid expectations. Every waking morning would be full of grunting, complaining, crying. So naturally, this morning when I woke up (like any other morning) I prayed or murmured “I am unhappy Lord, so unhappy I don’t even know what to say to you anymore. I have stressed and lost sleep over this ….and nothing is happening yet. If this isn’t what you want for my life, then get me out of this situation already, provide an escape plan..whatever!”  And I just cried silly.

Typical rebellious impatient believer.

My relationship with the Father is such of a confused teenager (ha ha), that He responds like a typical firm but loving dad. I got up, got my iPad and mindlessly browsed through the podcast titles. Guess what? Today’s preaching presented itself to me like an expensive gift on Christmas morn,

Title: Waiting on God’s Timing

I have provided the link to the preaching so anyone needing guidance will also benefit from it.  Again, spoken by a loving Father to a whiny child, God reminded me that His timing is perfect. He couldn’t reiterate it enough and said “wait and wait and wait and wait“, I kept asking “why, why, why and how long?” I flipped through the pages of my journal and checked my prayer requests sometime ago- I stared at it, let out a sigh and calmly drew a close subset on all the items and scribbled this:


No answer yet…? It’s already been a year! Ugh.

God’s timing is perfect, I know that. I don’t see it now and I have questions, too. I am writing this down so I can come back to this later and be able to share with you the “whys”  and the “how long”-as soon as I get Daddy’s answer.

Meanwhile,  I just have to  wait.

It’s Only Words

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Yakkety Yak

I have a friend, and although I love her I am scared to talk to her. She talks and talks and talks, and I could butt in and say something totally irrelevant and unrelated and she wouldn’t notice it.  When she calls me on the phone, my ear burns. I could go to the bathroom or watch TV and she would still be talking. All I need to do is say “uhumm..” every now and then. Even when and if f I don’t pick up, she would leave messages as long as the Great Wall of China. She would be talking for a good 5 minutes and still not get to the purpose of her call. Can you relate?

I have been reading the books of Ecclesiastes and although some say this book is dark, whiny, negative and must be written by Scrooge, when you thoughtfully read and dissect Solomon’s words-it  is a breath of fresh air. I even asked some friends to explain a passage on my FB account,because no matter how often I read the book, this still offers new insights and instructions.

downloadChapter 6:11 is the inspiration for this blog.“The more the words, the less the meaning”, Solomon says. Some people think that the wordy you get the better the story becomes. Some think that  one sentence is dull or lame,and they are compelled to add to it or embellish it. By the way, while I was reading,  another friend called me and told me a totally different story that I allegedly said. Of course not! , but it was done so by whoever told her  to make the case intriguing and dramatic. What irony huh?

There is still beauty in simplicity.When we are succinct, we lessen the risk of misunderstanding, misinterpretation and therefore no one gets lost in translation.

Even when talking to God, Solomon warns us not to be quick with our mouth or be hasty in our hearts. “Let your words be few” does not in any way discourage us to follow the leading  of the Holy Spirit when we talk to God, it was a reminder to come to the throne with a  purpose,with specifics and not to blabber believing that a lengthy, wordy petition is any better.

When words are few, we open our listening ears and our hearts to what God has to say. Our Heavenly Father sits on the throne, not the psychiatrist’s chair.

I had an experience when I was a teenager, we were at a camp and we were doing “popcorn prayer”. A group of 8 praying randomly was like playing Russian Roulette lol. Each wait  for anyone to pray ( oh boy that was some wait), and I remember one camper who prayed for everything and everyone and every activities and every congregation, the whole world and the universe…and I fell asleep. It was embarrassing but that is the risk of wordiness.images

Praying over meals could be tricky too. The Sunday following a youth retreat I attended, our pastor’s sermon was about how to pray efficiently and effectively. I guess he noticed that all of us were too hungry to pray for  healing for the sick, and salvation of souls when we just wanted to say grace before grubbing. It was funny because at one time during the retreat, although it was unspoken and unplanned, one friend volunteered to pray over meals and as he started saying “Heavenly Father..” we all said  ” Amen” in unison right away. We found out that was exactly what he was planning on doing, just say “Heavenly Father,thank you for the food, amen.” That was a juvenile act but you know what I mean , haha.

I hope I made my point clear, I could go on but that would be doing the exact opposite of what I am sharing. Stay warm everyone.

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